人はどうして思いのままに生きられないの
泣けない弱い心も泣かない強さも、いらない
「君のこと思い出す日なんてない」のは、「君のこと忘れた時がないから」
Why can’t human just live and love as they always had in mind.
I don’t need a weak heart that is not able to cry, nor the strength to hold back tears.
“There are not any day that I am reminded of you,” is actually because “there are not any moment that I forgot about you”.
I still remember of earning money, just to provide the best birthday celebration. I’m not good at planning, but i did my best :3
and i received a headphone in return. it is faulty now, i must fix it.
thank you, for activating the warranty. You’re really thoughtful.
there once,
it was my June exam, i was looking for musics that doesn’t make me feel sleepy. So there i found this artist through the song “Lost in Las vegas”
It’s kinda dupstep and kinda less annoying, but more to the instrumental.
So i introduced it to him. He listened, and he said, not his type.
However, i keep telling how much i love Two steps from hell, and how happy i am finding them. He told me, to let him listen to all my collection.
I gave him my whole pendrive, inside contained thousands of music from them. almost 5gb of music.
He found this one, and told me it means a lot to him.
and the title, “I love you forever”
how naive back then, to believe forever.
But, to think about it, who will pay so much attention to you,
even i myself couldn’t do that in return.
Why didn’t we see it properly back then.
it’s in the past.
However, it hits me hard today, when i heard this song.
let it go let it go :3
Today talked about some stories of a friend (who’s an artist), of what he drew on his sketch book. A lot of interesting stories he thought up, it is quite fascinating to be exact.
Then i asked, why of all characters, why is this specific one character keep recurring. It actually represents him, and all the experiences he has experienced.
Then he tell me more in depth of what he thinks of a storyline he would want to draw in future. To protect his ideas, i can roughly outline not specify.
Something represent reflections, and merging into one.
It’s like a world depends on what perspective you look at it, it’s either colorful or monochrome. More like, he is me, i am him kind of story. Interesting.
The point of this is,
we shared a same view, after so many things happened, i start to see things at the brighter side and i’m happier, compared to back then,
everything i see or do, i have to estimate the worst outcome before i make a decision, then only i can estimate, if i am able to take it or not.
Source:kotoshi ichiban shiawase na no wa, kimi no soba ni irete koto wo.
-it is the happiest in this year that, i am able to be at your side.
